So I did it... Yesterday I signed up at the entrance examination for Psycology...
It always been my dream,attending psycology,but I never really tried to join. I finally did it now that I'm almost 23 years old, I should be graduated by now... what a shame.
But I already know that I'm not going to make it,they will only take 470 students and 700 joined already since July 15...
Also I took "fake-test" and man... I KNOW NOTHING. There were questiosn about Politics... I didnt even know what the fuck the question meant of who were that people in the list.I barely know who is the president of my state ... That's a shame,I'm an idiot! And I dont remember that much of History...(nevermid I hated history when I was in high school). I'm gonna fail that's a given. So... not only I will have to luive with the fact that I will never attentend the university I always dreamed of but I will have to stand the fact that I'm an idiot,that I failed AGAIN and that 470 people are better than me. Sometimes I just think I have a big ego and that's why failing affects me so much; but I guess truth is I have no self esteem at all and a new fail its gonna break me anf makes me feel like shit for too long.
Why I joined for this ammission test? I think its going to be the biggest mistake of my life. But on the other hand,I really need to do it,cause If I never try I will live with the weight that I never really made an effort. So I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna feel bad and I'll have to accept the fact that I cant do the job and the school I always loved to but at least I made an effort,I tried .
If I'm not gonna make it (which I'm sure ...) I'll attend the university of arts and the Environment which Is my second choice, and no test for this LOL.
It always been my dream,attending psycology,but I never really tried to join. I finally did it now that I'm almost 23 years old, I should be graduated by now... what a shame.
But I already know that I'm not going to make it,they will only take 470 students and 700 joined already since July 15...
Also I took "fake-test" and man... I KNOW NOTHING. There were questiosn about Politics... I didnt even know what the fuck the question meant of who were that people in the list.I barely know who is the president of my state ... That's a shame,I'm an idiot! And I dont remember that much of History...(nevermid I hated history when I was in high school). I'm gonna fail that's a given. So... not only I will have to luive with the fact that I will never attentend the university I always dreamed of but I will have to stand the fact that I'm an idiot,that I failed AGAIN and that 470 people are better than me. Sometimes I just think I have a big ego and that's why failing affects me so much; but I guess truth is I have no self esteem at all and a new fail its gonna break me anf makes me feel like shit for too long.
Why I joined for this ammission test? I think its going to be the biggest mistake of my life. But on the other hand,I really need to do it,cause If I never try I will live with the weight that I never really made an effort. So I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna feel bad and I'll have to accept the fact that I cant do the job and the school I always loved to but at least I made an effort,I tried .
If I'm not gonna make it (which I'm sure ...) I'll attend the university of arts and the Environment which Is my second choice, and no test for this LOL.
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